Yet another night of feeling upset about everything. What am I doing all these for? I'm just in a mess.

Dancetitude pracs are pouring in and instead of feeling happy that I'm taking part in it, I just keep thinking that I won't be able to do a good job. Gosh I know I'm really really lucky to get the first few choices on my list, and I really shouldn't ask for anything else. But I really feel lousy. Exact feeling I got after my locking+popping assessment the other day. Why am I even spending time on something that I'm not good at. (& then the inner me says: that is precisely why you should spend more time on it!)

But will it really pay off at the end of the day? Idk. I think the stress simply accumulated from HO till now and I didn't really get a chance to release all the pent up frustration or whatever emotions there is leftover. Having a fully packed recess week doesn't help either.

I really miss my friends.

unimportant replaceable incompetent cant help feeling small overwhelmed fearful fearful fearful weakling

AIYA KNNBCCB I JUST FEEL LIKE skglksdnglsnglnekgnlksnglknselnglknse lknBYE GONNA SLEEP IT OFF