plateau

i know miracles don't happen if you sit idle and do nothing but i haven't been exactly doing nothing. i feel like i've been stuck in this stage since forever. ive reached a plateau and have been walking on without knowing when the next rise would occur. maybe soon, maybe after a long while, maybe never. then again, to be fair, despite not doing nothing, i haven't been doing a whole lot either. guess i'm being me hoping things would be easy and go my way. snap snap stop dreaming time to grow up.

spent today with the family. they have been receiving little attention (and affection) from me, and i plead guilty. feels really great having meals over the same table, cracking stupid jokes, laughing at each other, watching my parents still being in love after decades. makes me all warm and fuzzy. also, the dad was so happy he told me i could buy whatever i wanted today, even if it's chanel or prada. there's no way i would do that, to spend his money on those things, even though they're reallyreallyreally pretty (every girl loves a chanel that's for sure). my point is, this old man is so happy and satisfied, just because we're all spending time together, to the point where he wouldn't mind spending his hard-earned money just so we could be happy too (albeit the material sense). but dad, i'm happy just spending time with you guys too. that being said, we did end up shopping in the end, not the branded sorts though. :p

dancetitude practices have started. i am beyond excited for the individual items to piece up together, for now. i hope it'll be a good show :) it's my first time taking part in a production, and also as a MJ member. i feel very proud whenever i think of that, to be part of MJ :> want to show the naysayers what we can do. honestly, we'll all in the local dance scene together, and it's such a small community, don't get why dimwits like to talk shit. i think one thing about MJ is, we're all really loving and people genuinely help each other out in the club. i would say we're quite peace-loving too. so i really don't understand why people would want to pick on us for nothing. well, there are always black sheeps among the whole bunch, so... just wish there could be more love, support, and maybe positive criticism, in the dance scene, instead of politics, gossips, and groundless shit-talking.

okay that kinda just spoiled my pre-sleeping mood. shall calm down. bye.

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