Vanish

Have you ever felt like your existence does not really matter? Like if you silently walked away from everything, no one would notice. Even if they did, they would be okay with it.  Even if they were, they would be okay after a short while.

I'm not sure if everyone does this, but I picture my funeral every now and then. Who would be there, who wouldn't be. Will people whom I place close to my heart be shedding tears for me. Will people who hate me be there, yet gloat over my departure.

I'm sounding really suicidal, but I'm not. I'm trying to live with some sort of an end in mind.

I think exams make me overthink things.