Late night influx of gushing thoughts

I feel it pressing in, the pressure. I just really want all of us to do well. I want us to feel the music and dance as one. This can't afford to go wrong. I'm nervous and excited to see how it will turn out. But I'm really wishing for the best. Time is running out and we have to make every second count. I can now say that I really love this group of dancers. I feel that sense of belonging when I dance with them. I feel so thankful for being able to be part of this team. I love Srethgie with all of my heart.

Made a trip down to Cathay to catch the Impresario competition, to support the MJ teams, and most importantly to support the boyfriend. This competition exactly one year back was the reason why I got involved in hiphop. Joining Impresario with FLaVa was one of the best decisions I've ever made, and it's a decision that I'll never regret. It has moulded me to the dancer that I am today. So many takeaways, and the bond shared with FLaVa will never be forgotten. I'm really thankful for being able to be part of FLaVa because without them I wouldn't like dancing this much, I wouldn't have learnt so much, and got to experience and get out of my comfort zone. I never got to tell them this but I'm really am so grateful for that opportunity. Those days were really hell, where we trained into the AM, and got so stressed up over it like the competition meant our everything, but those things were the exact reason why the whole journey with FLaVa was so meaningful.

Digressed a little, but this year's competition was intense. The teams were really impressive and the standard has way surpassed the norm. I just feel really really proud of my friends (okay namely Jason) for putting in so much hardwork. Watching him improve by leaps and bounds, it's just amazing. & I'm also really proud of Lester. He held the stage and exuded so much charm and confidence (I am not being biased just because he's my boyfriend!) This might not mean much to him but I just feel so proud. Getting a little emotional here with tears welling up and all that shit but OKAY it's a happy kind of tearing. #emotionalgirl91

There are so many people who mean so much to me and I just don't have enough time to show them I care. Does that mean that I don't? I mean, one could definitely find time if they want to. Is it an excuse? Maybe, I don't know. I wish I had more than 24hours in a day to do all the things I need to do.

Am I being oversensitive, or would I be insensitive?

Words can mean so much yet mean nothing. Emptiness.

Nobody can be a perfect person but everyone strives to be. & trying to get there is just so difficult. Will you keep trying?