Memories haunt

As much as I know I shouldn't be thinking of you, I still miss you every now and then.  Promises we made to each other, turned into nothing but mere spoken words. Pictures of us are still on my wall, but they're nothing more than pixels from the past. Places that we used to hang out together, are nothing but places. How long will I take to get used to this? I know we need to be apart. I need space. But either way, I'm suffering. Nobody told me it would be this hard. Exhausted from the pain. Worn out trying to hide. What happened to us? We used to be so strong...

stuffing myself with hello pandas alone in hall typing this with blurry eyes due to overactive tear glands. i've never felt so fucked up, so alone, ever before in my life.

this pain is killing me. and nobody can save me.