So infuriated I just need to whine.

Seeing a grown adult, conforming under negative social pressure, having no self-control whatsoever, is honestly disappointing.

This is the 4th time I had to deal with this same old shit, and it will be the last.
Such situations are so uncalled for and can totally be avoided in my most honest opinion.

It's not about me.
Why would I want to see someone I love suffer in the most retarded way possible?

Nobody is responsible for the shit you get into but yourself.
No, those people who made you do it don't clean up after your mess and take care of you.
Your friends and I are the ones checking up on you.
Why burden people and hurt yourself 'cos of some assholes who honestly have nothing better to do.

Seriously, I don't get how this whole thing works.
It makes no sense, whatsoever.
This is what 18 year old teeny boppers do.
Plain ridiculous.

For a moment I thought I was going to lose you forever and my heart stopped.
I don't have to tell you how stupid it will be to die of such a lame cause, do I?
Not cursing anyone, but this is not funny.

I feel like my worries and doubts are casting shadows on whatever hopes and dreams I used to have.
I hate uncertainties and this transition in life is too stressful for me to bear.
I don't know what I want.

People say things would work out but decisions have to be made and mistakes can't be erased and I know that's part of growing and learning but I just

"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they have."

- Anonymous

Words to remember. Words to live by.