Truthfully I've gotten so busy daily that I don't have the time to stop and think about every aspect of life. I've stopped having meaningful conversations with myself and everyday's just a hustle - tick off something from the to-do list, on to the next, end my day with exhaustion, and repeat this cycle when day breaks. Something about my recent trip to the States made me start thinking again. & I'm not sure if that deserves a celebration 'cos tbh it can get draining listening to the different voices in your head, getting pulled into different directions.
I've neglected this space for way too long & I'm glad I found it again because honestly, sometimes, it's hard for anyone to fully understand how you feel. Got a feeling I'll be here way more often than I used to be.
Floating at the top of my head right now, I'm thinking - how well do we actually think we know a person? Someone whom you think you know so well. Every thought, every move. & then suddenly, just one day, you're proven to be wrong? There's a dark side to the moon. What happens when the person you think you know so well ends up disappointing you? What happens when you see something you've failed to notice, something that you detest, in someone that you hold dear? People change, but it's hard to change someone. Who am I to dictate how one should be? Besides, I'm flawed myself. Way too flawed. Yet "I can't believe he/she said that" / "I can't believe that's the person he/she actually is" - how do we resolve this kink?
