Round and round

Haven't been updating for the longest time because I was too caught up with holidays and with everything else happening. This holiday is really really short and I want to cherish every second of it. December is my favourite month! Not just because my birthday is in December, but also because December relates to holidays, the festive season, the period of fun, joy, and hope. Speaking about my birthday, I've never blogged about it proper, but I felt like the luckiest girl on earth on that day. Getting to spend that day with all of my favourite people in the world. I want to hug everyone and tell them I love them! I'm so blessed, so so blessed. :)

& it's already the 31st of December. Is it just me, or are the years getting shorter? Time is passing too quickly for me to handle these days.

 Spent 5 awesome days in Bangkok with Clique. & it's never boring with them cos they're all quirky people and I feel really comfortable around them. Of course, Bangkok is one of my favourite places to be. I love their food, and how everything is cheap. & with one of my favourite shopping buddies Chuxuan, we murdered platinum mall (okay not as much as we wanted to cos the things were cheap but not THATTTT cheap).

Missed the boy while I was away. We've been meeting every single day before I flew off and I've gotten used to his presence. Clingy much?! 

We were guest performers for Danzpeople's Christmas event: RAVE. It was rather slipshod but considering we only had half a day to really tie up loose ends, I'm glad there were no major mistakes or anything. & with that, we have finally met requirements to participate in Dancetitude!!! I CANNOT WAIT.

The boy came down to support with my favourite pink daisy ^^

& my favourite mehmeh Candice Tijuana ^^

Christmas eve was spent with my Gunguns over at my place, for a simple dinner and christmas exchange! Boyfie also joined us. Really appreciate him trying to get to know my friends and get past his awkward self. Heh. What more could I ask for for christmas, spending time with these loved ones? Chiehling and Estelli stayed over and we htht-ed a little as usual. Love moments like these.

Caught Wreck-it Ralph with Bi and his friends on Christmas itself. He's wearing the ahpek polo tee I bought him from bangkok hohoho it's Santa Aly!

And of course, the annual christmas clique gathering at Poo's place!

Major loveeee ^^

Remember packing little gift packs for my friends last christmas but I guess I wasn't feeling much of the christmas spirit this time round. Didn't even write cards for anyone. :< What happened to me?! Gotta start putting in effort for such things.

Had an impromptu Bintan trip with the boy (gosh my life is revolved all around him these days huh?! HAHAHA not complaining though)

Mineeeee

:3

Loved the three days spent there, despite the trip itself to be rather disappointing. Having him around my side 24/7 x 3 made me a very happy girl ^~^ It was like our little getaway from the rest of the world. Really relaxing and slow-paced. I don't think I'll get to enjoy "wasting" time like this anytime soon. Got myself really sunburnt though -_____-"

Results release was rather disappointing. Overall I've improved, but just one module pulled my entire GPA down. I would be lying if I said I wasn't upset because I think I've tried to work harder this semester. But things don't always go our way. I was so worried that I would fail that module and I'm just glad I didn't. Gotta work real hard for the next semester. It's gonna be difficult cos of hall dance and dancetitude but I'm need to have more self-discipline.

2012's about to be over in a flash. What a crazy year. Feel like I've been through so much just in this year, metamorphosing into a different me. As usual, I shall set new year resolutions (that I never ever follow)

1. Pull my GPA up

2. Level up as a dancer

3. Lead a healthy lifestyle and get slim

4. Make time for friends and never neglect them

5. Spend more time with the family

6. Be an awesome girlfriend

7. Do financial planning

The loose ends make knots. I've had many regrets, and have done things that I'm not proud of this year. Although it's a new year, a new start, but the past is written and will never go away. I just want to learn from what I've been through, and become a better person. & I wish the same for everyone else too. To get over their pasts, remember the happy bits, learn from the wrong ones, and become better. I just want everyone to be happy.

Have a great 31st, everyone! Cherish the last moments of 2012. The new year awaits and may it be fantastic ;)

I haven't been this happy. Wait, I don't think I've EVER felt this happy. But a part of me is fucking afraid. Can't afford to be a weakling and lose myself like how I did. & it's funny how 2 bottles of beer made all these feelings even stronger, like they're struggling to surface. Why would someone like me  deserve someone like you, because honestly sometimes I feel like I don't deserve anyone. Okay gotta sleep it off my head is spinning and I'm feeling like the most hideous person alive. Bye

Cover me up, cuddle me in

Settle down with me 
Cover me up 
Cuddle me in 
Lie down with me 
Hold me in your arms 

Your heart's against my chest 
Lips pressed to my neck 
I've fallen for your eyes 
But they don't know me yet 

And the feeling I forget 
I'm in love now 

Kiss me like you wanna be loved 
Wanna be loved 
Wanna be loved 

This feels like I've fallen in love 
Fallen in love 
Fallen in love 

I was having a late night chat with a friend and it struck that life is just filled with phases and we never stop going through them. It always takes something for us to realise what your heart actually wants, what you've actually be living for but just living it because it has already become a habit, what you think was okay was actually not, and all other things like that, those things that matter. Certain occurrences make you realise facts that you did not realise before, or just did not want to admit to. & that's just how life is. There is no right or wrong. It's just timing and interactions. Opportunities, regrets, luck, fate, right moments, wrong moments, all of them. Sometimes it bugs us - we want to choose what is 'right', but there often isn't. They are just options. & each route would unfold a different story.

& we always want what we don't have. That, I think, is a very sad thing about people. We just can't be satisfied with what we have. & even if we do, we often don't show it the right way.

I want to believe in forever. Different occurrences cause me to constantly change my decision. Things that make me lose faith, and things that make me regain that faith. Just the other day, I saw this elderly couple helping each other get down the bus, and they held hands as the trudged slowly. Tears just formed in my eyes that instant. There's just something about them that's so sweet and moving, and I wish I can own something like that too. Just how many of us are able to achieve something like that?

I hope you'd be happy and start anew. I hope you didn't get me wrong. I hope you'd find someone who'd cherish you.

Thursday night was spent with Clemmy and Yanjie where we had a mini QING GONG YAN to at a seafood tzechar place to celebrate our (self-proclaimed) end of finals! *toss confetti* We also had beer (and I don't want to mention how I trolled them towards the end because I am guilty) to conclude the semester.

Also a very happy Saturday out with my K44HTCHX. Manicure, some quick shopping, Starbucks while catching Breaking Dawn (which was good! Trust me, I hated both Twilight and New Moon),  and a long bus ride. Catching Danzation with MJ was awesome as well. Love catching dance productions, and I've been learning to notice details and learning points instead of just going through the motion of watching it. Inspiring to see such passion and unity. So warm and fuzzy. & of course, for a couple of minutes during the show I couldn't notice anything else. Also had supper with MJ, which we haven't in a long while. It was a perfect day to me.

Hitting the sacks. Good night and have a great day ahead.
xx