I haven't been this happy. Wait, I don't think I've EVER felt this happy. But a part of me is fucking afraid. Can't afford to be a weakling and lose myself like how I did. & it's funny how 2 bottles of beer made all these feelings even stronger, like they're struggling to surface. Why would someone like me  deserve someone like you, because honestly sometimes I feel like I don't deserve anyone. Okay gotta sleep it off my head is spinning and I'm feeling like the most hideous person alive. Bye