Getting past

I've lost control of myself. No idea what came over me (well actually I do but still...)

It was... a turmoil. Came clean, and I would believe it's the right thing to do. Ashamed, for I am much worst than you think I am, and this whole time I've just been trying to keep that from you. I'm fully exposing my vulnerabilities, things that I'm not proud of, to you. I am apologetic, for letting you know late. I have my fair share of regrets and I want to stop creating them. It stops here.

That pain, I know it very well. It's like some one's grabbed hold of your heart, wrenching it so tight it hurts. It's like somebody choking you, and you feel so helpless when you can't breathe. & you can't stop it. So many things that I am dying to know, yet I'm better of not knowing. It's confusing, and painful for me, just because I can't get past those. You have that affect on me and I don't like it.

I care way too much for my own good and I'm more afraid than ever. But thank you, for whatever you said. They mean the whole world to me. & if it's only a dream, don't ever wake me up.

You have probably brought out the best, and the worst in me. & I feel uglier than I've ever felt. But I want to be a better lover, the best you've ever had and will ever have. We'll strive to be better persons, for each other and ourselves. We have each other now and that's what matters. I'm beyond thankful, to have you in my life. <3 p="">