The finishing line that keeps running away

So these few days I feel like I've been chasing something impossible. Chasing so hard. But as soon as I move forward a little, the finishing line shifts further away from me. It's tiring, and demoralizing. It's like how I know clearly that the goal is right in front of my eyes, and I used to think I have what it takes, yet I'm not getting there.

Just another day of incompetency and disappointment. Who's to blame? Wish I could be better, but wishing is for fools, for lazy blokes who aren't putting enough hard work.

Questioning myself if this is worth my time. I know how this ends. I know the answer to my question. Just that sometimes in the midst of chasing, your vision gets blurry, you get tired and forget what drove you to chase that finishing line in the first place, and all you feel like doing is take a long long rest and avoid everything else that's going on.

Where's my Prince Charming when I need him. :<
Speaking of which... Boy's away for reservist, which means staying in camp for a week. Well, I thought I was done with army boys and their crap hahahahahhaha. Ended up with this Lester Leong who signed on for 6 years................. What to do?! Zzz.

My Kitty Froggy :> The only one worldwide and he's mineeeee muahahaha.

Told him to buy me the hello kitty froggy toy from Macdonalds while I was in NZ (because Lester looks like a frog and hello kitty is cute so I really wanted the toy. Just the frog one!) but it was said to be sold out. To comfort me he said he would be my special edition Kitty Froggy haha. Still, I was super upset and when he knew that I REALLY wanted it he asked around and cabbed to get the kitty for me despite his busy schedule. :') So touched I cried HAHAHA.

My bed feels so empty without you. Can't wait to be back in your arms again xx