Switch off

I have the tendency to fall back into routine, just because it's comfortable and safe. & there is nothing wrong with liking comfortable and safe, is there? My routine these days largely comprises of binge eating for comfort and self-declared narcolepsy (it's almost like a medical condition, seriously). It's like my bitch of a brain would auto-hibernate and switch over to Operation Denial whenever I tell myself to start studying. 

Lately I've been staring at the ceiling fan too much and for too long. Thinking about how so many things that used to matter no longer do, and how they were so temporary, regardless of how beautiful they used to be. I've been getting really nonchalant about certain things and absolutely oversensitive over some others. (What you said meant a whole lot to me.)

13 days to my first paper and I am stuck in an abyss of remorse and self-pity. I know myself too well and sometimes I hate how I just keep whining but not do anything about it. Here we go again. I'm gonna fuck it up so badly, yet another time.

Anyhooz, on a lighter note! Attended Evelyn's 21st birthday celebration tonight! Got to know her back in kindergarten (no kidding, totes adorbz way back thenzzzz), for 16 years now, and I know I'll keep this friendship of ours for life. ^^

With Ying baoberrr waiting for the Nicole Loke Binuan.

At this point, about 745pm, Evelyn was already half-drunk. *smh*

Love every minute spent with them.

& halfway through the day I've gotten myself a nasty eye infection. :< think it started cos I napped with my lenses on. It's not the first time I've done this ugh why can't I learn from my mistakes.

Swollen and looking real shitty. I actually look like a vampire that's turning and is about to feed. Reference material: Vampire Diaries.

AND NOT A SINGLE BIT OF STUDYING WAS DONE TODAY. *slow clap*

#YOLO #HOSEHBO

Tomorrow wah bei chiong chiong chiong and study real hard. JYEAHHHHH.

With much love, hunger pangs (even after eating so much at the party) (I blame everything on finals) (SHUT UP), & horrid red eyes.

xx