It was the last MJ class on Thursday & I felt really empty. Not because people are leaving, but because people are leaving and yet I don't feel much when I know I ought to. Looking at the juniors batches being so bonded just makes me feel a little jealous because I know I'll never have a close-knitted batch. I don't get the exact reason either, but it's just what it is. It has always been this way. Not like I didn't make any effort (e.g. creating batch whatsapp group) but it's doesn't take just one person. & to be honest, it's kinda too late.
I don't blame my batch mates or anyone. I mean, it's just like that. & I'm just upset that I don't have a bunch of people who really push together. By push, I don't mean to just appear for classes but to want something together. Look at the current juniors, they're all so hungry to improve and they fight to make it happen. I mean, true, there's always a flip side to the coin. You could have quarrels and form cliques and be overly competitive yada yada. But a dance club bonds through the passion to dance. & if that's absent I don't see where the bond would come from. I mean, my batch never quarreled or did anyone had issues with anyone, but we aren't close either.
:( just feeling rly sad because I'm not supposed to feel that way. In my ideal it isn't.
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