Here I am, sitting all alone in the huge and empty study room, holding back an urge to just break into tears. I don't think I'm strong enough for this. As much as others are pushing, this moment right now, I feel so alone.

The person I'm dying to hear from seems to be interested in something else. & while I try to make things better it's just brushed aside. What more can I do. I just feel useless, helpless, like a loser who's taken for granted.

Is it that hard to just show some appreciation. Or maybe I just really don't have the ability make that much of a difference to your life.

Useless.