500 days of summer

You can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence. There are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be.

Have always wanted to catch 500 days of summer. Caught it last night with JH after dinner. Awesome film. Simply because it's different. It doesn't drown you with all the nonsensical unrealistic romantic ideals. It shows how intricate love can be - filling you with happiness at one moment, daggering you with pain the next. The struggle you go through trying to pull yourself away from the hurt, yet repeatedly fall back into it because you can't withdraw from it. Just because you hold on to that thin thread of hope, unable to let go of what's good. Then finally gaining enlightenment, and fighting for the happiness you deserve. Some say the film didn't have a happy ending. It is, at least to me. Sometimes it's more than sticking together through thick and thin, but about growth and realization.

Also hooked on "Rooftop Prince", recommended by insane kdrama lover Roomie Yihua. I can swear she forced me into watching it. Forcefully navigated through my browser and streamed the show for me before I could realise it. As a result, I'm suffering from a headache because I've been watching the drama ever since I woke up today, only taking breaks during meal time and toilet breaks. OFFICIALLY HOOKED.

Right. I still have an elective paper on Wednesday.......................

I'll worry about that tomorrow.

x

Get ready to implode the only heart you know

After cooping myself at home for almost 2 days, finally got a chance to head outside for some sun. AND THE SUN I GOT. Heat's been a bitch these days.

Chirpy

My new-old pair of forgotten flats that's hidden in it's box, unmoved for about two years. I should do this more often: keep my stuff in a hidden corner and then digging them out. The surprise you get from finding them is pretty satisfying.

Caught The Lucky One in the theatres. You should be glad if you didn't waste 9 bucks watching it. YOU are the lucky one. Storyline was kind of like bullshit. Trying too hard to be romantic but it's so farfetched and unrealistic. Bitch who acted as the main lead (I don't even remember her name) also got on my nerves (not because she made out with Zac Efron. Promise.)

YJ's pretty pretty pumps.

Poor Mart was rushing on his final project right after our movie.

I wore jeans out!!! Anyone who knows me well would know this - I barely wear jeans. Should start wearing them more often.

Lovelies ^^

Went drinking at Paulener's after the movie. The beer awesome, the company splendid.

Xiaoyanyan flower fairy (inside joke)

Many more semesters to go my friends. We'll get better! We swore to Mr Paulener on that fateful night.

xoxo

Out with lousystudybuddy DX. Attempted to study.

Had my share of Yoguru.

Also settled my caesar salad craving.

Love my metal-tipped chiffon cream top and floral highwaists!

Also, I am dying to own the entire pastel highwaisted series at TOPSHOP. & that awesome printed bralet.

On a totally unrelated note: my cousin lost 8kgs by curbing her dietary habits and exercising by pure determination and self discipline. IF SHE CAN DO IT SO CAN I.

IT'S SO ON, DUDE.

I HEREBY DECLARE COMMENCEMENT OF OPERATION STARVATION!!!!!!!!!! (inserts a dozen more exclamation marks to emphasize on my enthusiasm and the realness of this shit)

YEAH!!!!! *AIR FIST*

Feigning ignorance for now.

Float

Came up with a list of what I would want to do in the holidays. According to past experience, I don't think I'd accomplish more than half the list. Let's see if I can break the habit this time.

Eating this. Sweets for the mouth.

Watching this. Candy for my eyes.


It's completely healed now. Actually, long ago. It's pixelated and unclear anyway, but here. Time to shed some pounds (gained from the non-stop binge eating for the past week or so. No, since I entered uni).


Okay back to my drama.
x

Tweaked the blogskin slightly. Still ugly. Whatevz.

Freedom is so close - left with one elective paper. Also full of regrets because I screwed up all my core papers. No willpower remaining to study for that last paper. Can't wait for it to all be officially over.

Been watching "My girlfriend is a nine-tailed fox" the past few days to unwind. Haven't caught idol dramas for a while. I stopped watching simply because the storylines are repetitive. This drama's unique though! Still, I hate how dramas give me an unrealistic ideal of how relationships should be like: romantic, sweet, brave, selfless. Reality is ugly. Truth.

Also gave up partying tonight just to be a couch potato at home. Getting old.

Back to my show, and my pint of Ben & Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake.

Tongue Tied

So two papers down, two more to go. Yet I'm behaving like exams are already over. Not goooodddddd. Besides, the first two papers were suicide.

Caught Battleship with DX after my second paper. In need of half a day's rest, and half a day's rest I got.

Also stood by the ice rink, mesmerized (as quoted from DX). I'd love to float around that rink, but I doubt I can even stand on those blades. I've never tried, and I don't think I'll ever muster that courage either. It's too embarrassing to fall. There was this old man I was particularly impressed with, spinning around and all, although he was taking really deep breaths throughout his frequent stops. Age really catches up with people. That's one thing I've learnt from developmental psychology; and the scary thing is you clearly know that you are deteriorating but all you can do is to accept it because that is just what happens, a part of life. So... I'm trying to embrace what I have now.

While we're still young........ YOLO MUTHAFUCKERZ!!! SKIP SCHOOL PARTY HARDDDDDD.

Study hard, my friends.

Also, a late night whatsapp convo that cracked me up real bad. Looking back I don't even know why. What have exams done to me?!

Maybe I haven't read anything in chinese for too long. I laughed so bad I was gonna suffer from internal injuries. Also had too many funny convos with YJ that involved us insulting ourselves, whining about our unproductivity as well as stupidity. #examstress

Spent today at a newfound favourite chillout, Greenwich V, which is just one stop away from my place. My home's located at such an awkward place, and if not for this newly built mall, it would take at least 20minutes to get to the nearest mall. Haven't had the chance to check the mall out since I'm spend my time in hall most of the time. Today was awesome. Planning to make regular trips there in the future already.

LOVE THE CAESAR SALAD. Having really bad withdrawal symptoms and am craving for it right now.

Study buddy Rach ^-^

Unkempt

Clocked a few semi-productive hours, and being me, I kept pestering her for dinner (although I've food prepared at home).

The enoki bacon was flavorgasmic. 'Nuff said.

Cedele sweets after.

I look really horrid but oh well.

Fighting the hunger. Shall head to bed.

x

Despair

Didn't feel like starting on my next set of notes, so I stayed at the rooftop for a little while. Funny how I went there to take a breather, but ended up feeling suffocated and trapped. All I could see were school buildings, and the shuttles buses that would go around non-stop around the campus.

Social paper was relatively simple - which is a problem. Even with my ability, I found it manageable. I can only picture how the bell curve would look like. & I'm just gonna be there, at the very bottom, where I always am. Socpsych paper is my only hope to pull up my grades, but it seems like there isn't a chance for me now.

I am extremely unwilling to start on my devtpsych. Unwilling to find out how much I don't know.

Just let me live in denial for another 5minutes.

NO1CURRZ

It's like I see people going on and on about how their paper is like 4 or 5 days away and I'm all like

MY DAMN PAPER IS 4 HOURS AWAY AND I HAVE SO MUCH ANGST AND HELPLESSNESS IN MY STOMACH I'M ABOUT TO PROJECTILE MOTION IT INTO SOMEONE'S FACE.

It's 3months worth of work, squeezed into a couple of days, technically 2. I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO COMPETE WITH THOSE WHO DID THEIR WORK CONSISTENTLY AND HAD LESS COMMITMENTS.

No, but, really. Giving up on myself already.

I shouldn't be here

but I can't study.

It's like my entire life is a lie. "University will be fun they said. It'll be fun they said." Munching on my packet of Ruffles. Sour Cream & Onion's my favourite. & a cup of useless camomile tea that keeps bugging me to go to bed, not to mention the rain that's going on outside.

I can vaguely recall me whining about exams and feeling really miserable the previous sem, which is approximately 3 months prior, which isn't that long ago. I can't imagine having to go through this a couple more times. & I don't know if I am the only one feeling this way - because everyone else seems to have their drive and are able to push themselves. Insane bunch. I've always wondered how other people did it, the whole studying hard thing. It just doesn't work like that for me.

Should stop snacking and whining on this space because this isn't gonna help pull my (horrendously shitty) GPA up.

So goodbye, if there's even anyone reading this, and

FUCK THE DAMNED SYSTEM.
Yes, in big bold angsty red, because I need an excuse for my inability.

/edit: Throwing all angst aside, here's a beautiful song.

Beautiful girl
Let the sunrise come again
Beautiful girl
May the weight of world resign
You will get better

Collide

/Life's all about moments of impact, and how they change our lives forever. But what if one day you could no longer remember any of them?/

Caught "The Vow" with Serlina and Eileen. Been wanting to catch this film once the trailer was released. Totally disregarded the fact that finals is THIS FRIDAY. *hyperventilates*

Rachel McAdams is definitely one of my favourite actresses when it comes to romance. & Channing Tatum, just plain hot. Just that he looks more douchebag-ish than the charming man sort, even as I try to put the fact that he was once a stripper aside. Not complaining though. Still attractive in a way.

The show is kind of overrated though. Don't catch it in the theatre if you haven't, if you know what I mean.

Studied together at 'bucks. Did I mention I missed these two?

Anyway, epic shit happened: I left my textbook and notes at where we caught the movie, a 15minute bus ride away from the place we were studying at. So I had to make a return trip, AND BACK to Starbucks. Sometimes I amuse myself so much I don't even... I'm just. Speechless. I'm just lucky that I could retrieve my book and notes back. If not... Well not that this last minute studying would make that much of a difference but still...

Had Broccoli Cheese soup from Quiznos along sandwich for dinner. Haven't drank something so awesome in a while.

Wild one

Now my life is sweet like cinnamon,

like a fuckin' dream I'm living in.

Lana Del Rey - Radio

Accompanied Yihua to get her tat that day. Also had our final social psych project meeting. So glad projects are over for this sem!

Dinner with YH and Estelli

Did a shoot with HDB for some sort of housing project - involves me falling asleep, smiling as I drift into dream land. Well, I am a pro at that in real life. I would totally own it. Who knew it'd be that tough PRETENDING to fall asleep with a camera fixed on you monitoring your every move. The snippets I got to watch were just awkward. I look hideous 'cos I didn't have makeup on. I don't even know what the scale of this project is. Just hoping the public won't get to see it. How glamorous can one look falling asleep?

Got myself a large cup of KOI today. Highlight of the day. Also 2 big packets of Ruffles in Original, and Sour Cream & Onion. (Kinder Bueno, London Chocorolls, Lemon Cola gummies too)


Awkward fingers.

Back to the books

xo